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This is now the end of January. We're about 30 days into the new year and coincidentally enough, within about 30 days to the end of 20 21, Gigster, the super nerd, Out of Mississippi released a new album called Final Fight.

 

He and I had a bit of a discussion about different values, different perspectives, all sorts of original content.

 

This guy's an artist folks. I'm telling you, this is gonna be an awesome conversation. Here in January though, we're gonna close out our core values for the month. We're talking ambition, perseverance, and reflection.

 

But as we're talking with Geekster, we're gonna add in loyalty and respect as well. This is such a cool topic. I can't wait to hear about this His artistry, his mindset, his perspective.

 

We're gonna talk about over the last 12 years now of his career, see how things have evolved for him and how everything's come together for him in the future. So without further ado, guys, Thank you for tuning in.

 

If you're new to the show and if you're a returning listener, welcome back. I'm Porter. I'm your host, and this is SD YT the podcast. Alright, everybody. Welcome back to SDYT the podcast. Again, on Porter, I'm your host.

 

I'm here with Geekster, The Super Nerd, and we've got so much cool stuff to talk about, his new album Final fight, but finding your passion, your identity, a mix of different emotions, and regrets, and reflections all about ambition, and artists he's collaborated with.

 

I this is this is a pretty loaded episode. I'm I'm pretty excited. So we'll break this down maybe let's say, past present and future. We'll do a couple different segments in this.

 

First off though, let's get down to a geekster. What's going on, man? How's your day? It's going good for the most part. I was able to get my coffee, so that caffeine is just what I needed to be able to get my day started.

 

Yeah. Perfect. Perfect. And just for the record, you're what? An hour, 2 hours behind East Coast? Absolutely. Absolutely. It's 12 yeah. It's 12:17 in my time.

 

Central Standard Time. Oh, yeah. Okay. So you're you're an hour behind me then. Well, I appreciate you taking your morning to or I guess lunch time to talk with a little bit. Absolutely. First off though, congratulations.

 

You got your new album out final fight. That's gotta be exciting of. Very, very. It was a long time coming too. Yeah. I think I saw it took something like 10 years to get it together and get into head space?

 

Indeed, because Well, a lot of people don't know is that that was actually the first project I ever started working on. But it took so long because I had so many things, you know, things in my personal life going on.

 

But I really and I I kinda figured since I already released and EP callartified, I might as well fire it up with that project, and that was a good move. I was able to take some personal issues and put them in their mixed tape.

 

And that statement was a good thing that I did too because a lot of people gravitated towards it. Yeah. Now I saw you had Death star also, but that was also in 20 21, or when did that come on?

 

Oh, yeah. That was 20 21. I released 3 projects last year. That's a busy year. Yo. Deathstar came in July the 20 second, I think. Artifier came September 20 fifth, and Final Fire was released December second of last year.

 

All last year, Man, that that is busy. But I imagine it was a good outlet for you after being stuck inside for the last year and a half, 2 years maybe? Yes, Yes.

 

Because the pandemic has been it's it's locked up, you know, a lot of business thing, you know, and things like that down. A lot of people, especially in my community, they don't come out unless they have to work or anything like that.

 

You've hardly seen anybody out now. That's kinda the same here. I mean there's some people that come and go for necessities, you know, groceries and gas, that kind of thing.

 

But But things certainly aren't like they were where people are hanging out or relaxing or going out or just crowds of people, whatever. Absolutely. It's not as lively as it was, you know, previously.

 

Yeah. Lively is a good word for it. Speaking of lively, I'm I'm curious 3 projects in 20 21, but you started, what, 2012, 2014, sort of putting pen on paper and adding some music to lyrics or what?

 

Well, when I well, I'll say this, like, I didn't begin my journey until I until I turned I say 14 after because, you know, it was easy to drag you know, for the transition.

 

And what I mean by that is, I was a big fan of poetry before you even started music.

 

Okay. So when I realized I want to pursue music, I actually took the poetry and turned it into lyrics and I'll say that's how everything started, you know, Here we are, writing awesome music, sticking to the topic and things like that.

 

And it took a lot of work, it would. You know. No. Isn't it? It was worth all the effort. Oh, I mean, clearly. Sure. Isn't that sort of the inception of rep?

 

Right? Like just basically poetry to rhythm or I guess rhythm and poetry. Yep. Rhythm and poetry, that's all it is. Yeah. Yeah. So it sounds like it's a perfect fit. I think it it's such a cool outlet.

 

You know, like obviously you've got loads of creativity that you're putting out there, but it's 1 thing to tie it to relevant real world topics it's another to take those lyrics and your creativity and your ambition and tie that to real world topics that also reflect hobbies of yours like video games passions of yours like older school older generation type video games.

 

Well, like Final Fight, for example, that is a video game. You know? So now we're talking like 2 d type video games. Right? Of the retro retro classic. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Because you're not gonna find them too much anymore.

 

But what what brought on that sort of passion. I I guess how how do you take those sort of hobbies and cultivate them into your own identity? You know, what What worked for you? What was your process?

 

Well, I I think the biggest part of that is being true to who and what I was, you know, and You know? It's a a lot of people, what I've noticed is that as artists, they they speak on things that they're familiar with.

 

They speak on things that taking nature to them, which is very understandable. Sure. And with me, I want to do the same thing.

 

So things that are second nature to me is my hobbies on reading, taking in knowledge, comic books, anime, science fiction, video games, I could be able to sit down and have a conversation and really explain what's going on in all of that in simplest terms.

 

But I feel what I wanted to do was take that same energy and implement it in my music, and in the marital would not only could people understand what I'm talking about, but they could be able to understand, you know, how their correlates with my everyday life.

 

True. Yeah. It's it's ties like that that make things relatable and I think it's that relatability or that relation that makes audiences empathize with an artist too. Musician or otherwise, but as an artist in general.

 

Yes, sir. Yes, sir. Yeah. That's that's powerful, man. And now, matter of fact, what we're talking about retro style video games, Cody Travers, basically is the lead character in final fight.

 

Right? Absolutely. The the main protagonist. Protagonist. Yeah. So now as he's going through different levels and turmoil and and just thugs and gangs, really.

 

And going through the gameplay, Well, let me back up. For anybody listening, Cody Travers is also a 1 of the songs, 1 of the more popular songs as I understand it actually on on Final Fight as well.

 

Right? Yes, sir. Absolutely. And this was this 1 isn't even just you. This was a collaboration, I think. I'm playing Jane, I believe, and and yourself? Yes, sir.

 

Yeah. Yeah. So what how does how does Cody Travers come together as a track? Based on the video game, but to your earlier point as it relates to you and your life, what's the nexus there for that song? That's an interesting question.

 

I'm glad that you asked her. Now when I first decided that I was gonna You know? Well, the moment I realized I want to do the project final fight, Cody Travers was actually the very first person that came to mind.

 

And the reason why I made it a necessity to put him to make a song for him, not just because he the main protagonist, but because I could relate to him, you know, going through situations, he has to battle gangs, crooked policemen, the city itself in order to be able to save and protect his girlfriend just ago.

 

And I could relate to that because I'm not single.

 

I have to go through, you know, physically protect my fiance but I could understand what it means and what he want and why he, you know, what he had to go through to protect her because the same I would do the same thing for my fiancee.

 

And along with that, like, throughout that whole video game, all he did was fight.

 

If he wasn't 1 person he had to beat up, he was another person, and I could relate to that because it seemed like there's always something I had to battle.

 

Mhmm. Why is it was mental health issues, an arrest the rest of occasions, physical interaction, notation, things like that.

 

And, you know, sometimes I have to battle myself, my insecurities, my doubts, So it was very easy to implement all of that and put that into the tone, Cody Trappers.

 

Well now that you break it down, it sounds a lot simpler to tie into a protagonist like that because otherwise it's not like you're, you know, going after low hanging fruit and talking about, you know, what it's like if you were a cartoon character or if you are, you know, an animated character or what it would be like if you were in this game with forearms as big as your quads, you know.

 

So so for 1, I'm glad that there's a lot of aspects of these songs that actually have depth. I think now, at least in my opinion, there's a lot of music that's coming out that doesn't.

 

You know, like it reflects what the artist observes or what they're physically going through, or it's like, COVID related songs and movies, like, okay, sure.

 

It's another virus or another zombie thing or another whatever, but you're not another artist.

 

Like you've got depth, you've got relatability, you've got exposure to topics that whether people think about it or not, everybody else experiences as well, but you're tying it to something that people enjoy like video games, which people can tie to nostalgia, they can tie to their families, they can tie to a passion or an upbringing or a perspective.

 

And then coming from Mississippi coming from I think you were in You were in a competition last year, weren't you?

 

Yes, sir. We're not like a competition. But yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It was it was It was the hood out of showcase. That's right. That's right.

 

Lex Luga hosted, I believe. Right? Yes, sir. Yes, sir. Yeah. Yeah. Let's talk about that for a second. Getting a little bit more into your your personal life, I suppose. What what was this about? What was the competition about?

 

Oh, wow. In order to tell that story, I would have to go back. I think maybe, well, 5 years ago, when I when I to my first attendance of the hood out of tour, I was walking past a little sports bar And my cousin stopped me.

 

Well, 1 of my cousins stopped me and said, because they're having a showcase in there. I'm like, what do you mean? They're having a showcase artists and singers are able to perform.

 

You have music. So why do you perform? I mean, before I knew it, I was running to my house, had changed clothes. And they could they tell me how to pay 25 dollars to to perform.

 

So and all I that's all I had was 25 dollars. So I went there, got the money, came back, and they asked me, you know, like, who are you I said, my name is Geeks to the super nerd. Yeah.

 

They looked at each other and they they kinda laughed a little bit because down here, I would say, in in, you know, in in a lot of parts of Mississippi, people still believe in their stereotype to where nerds and Geeks are really the underdogs of society to where we don't have any significant value.

 

We're still creepy. All we do is read books and stuff like that. We don't really have a a personal life outside of Scalaskan academic goals. So I met Luga. And Luga, I told him my name.

 

He said, okay, that's what's up. Like, when it when it came to be my time to perform, you said my name, and the people in the crowd that were laughing because of the name, all of that change would not perform.

 

When I performed everybody in that crowd was quiet, it was so quiet that I heard the toilet flush in the back in in the back of the building.

 

So what it was what was so funny about it is not only were they quiet, but I want second place. Here you go. Second place in the hood aisle tour, you'll get the song that you performed placed on their mix tape.

 

Oh, wow. So Luga actually stopped me, and he said that your music is good, but it's also marketable because in that whole song, you did absolutely no cursing.

 

No profanity was so welcome. Yeah. So I performed 2 more times And after I got the same response, I had people that would stop me and say, if you keep going, you'll make it.

 

So I got the reassurance I needed, and it showed me that even though I wasn't getting a lot of support, in my hometown because it's it it's generally a crabbucking.

 

It's it's a crabbucking, you know, to to to, you know, to sum it all up.

 

So I will say that sometimes you have to step outside of where you live, to realize that you don't have to necessarily get support from your peers in order to be able to get that recognition in that respect you deserve.

 

People in other countries, other states, they all support you quicker than people that have known you your entire life.

 

Sometimes that's definitely the case. You know, there's a I can't remember his name now off the top of my head. I think it was Napoleon Hill, that name ring a bell to you?

 

Yes, sir. Yes, sir. So so among a few other things for anybody listening, Napoleon Hill is an author. Where I guess was another. And he he wrote a book, for example, called Think and Grow Rich.

 

But he also said I may be misquoting here a little bit, but he also said basically that the Some of the people with the greatest potential that have failed throughout history have been because they've relied on the advice of their friends and family.

 

And I think that ties a lot into what you're saying here where you've gotta be it's sort of a cosmic truth, I think, that you've gotta learn to be uncomfortable in different circumstances and settings to be able to grow.

 

If you just stick to your family, your friends, your safety net, your support group, your security blanket, you're never really gonna reach as far as you could based on your potential and your ambition.

 

And I think it shows a lot with your music and what you're capable of so far as well.

 

Even based on this story here where you had to sort of build support from complete strangers, but that's what gave you the drive to be able to push further.

 

Yes, sir. Yes, sir. Now while we're talking about that, actually, you had mentioned when you were describing the hood idled to her. You talked about geeks and nerds as the underdogs of society. Let's let's jump on that a little bit.

 

Your your name for 1 as an artist, your identity is basically self proclaimed, I suppose, but a geek with an affinity for nerdcore hip hop. You know, like what are these terms? They're they're not something you put together every day.

 

So let's break them down a little bit. How do you define being a geek? How'd you come up with your name? What is how does all this come together as your identity as an artist or as an individual? What do you got?

 

I would be happy to ask that. Now this goes back to I would have to say I had to be in, like, 19 years old. But I had a mentor who also I mean, who was the brother, 1 of my closest friend who passed away a few years back.

 

His his name is Deborah Hayward, but his stage name was Big Stex. So he heard that I was recording music he offered to take me under his wing.

 

Mhmm. So I recorded 1 song with him, and he was already impressed. He could see the the hunger and the drive I had. So the next weekend I went over to his house, he said, we're going to record.

 

But before we do, you have to come up with a stage name for yourself. We must have said I must have said it down for, like, 10 whole minutes brainstorming what I could call myself.

 

Yeah. Because I never I I was so focused on the music. I never thought about the name. Well, it's like that it's like that moment in Spiderman when Toby Maguire's behind the wrestling curtain before he goes out, you know?

 

Yes. And then in this I still thought about that because I was like, I don't wanna come up with something cool because I don't wanna be like that because Toby McGuire talked to your announcer.

 

Yeah. What's your name? He said to him and Spider, he said, oh, that sucks.

 

I don't know what you was this shit. Yeah. So I told the extent I said, what about what about the geeky 1? He said, no, Bigster, and it stuck. But then I felt like it was too I felt like it was ordinary for what I was. Sure.

 

And the reason why I say that is because I felt I was the best of both both worlds at geek and the nerd and to be able to explain why I felt that way, a geek is the find where a nerd is someone were defined as somebody who understands and collects, complicated, and cool stuff.

 

Okay. And Geek is an individual that can be able to not only know and collect cool stuff, but it's also able to fix these things.

 

So I saw a lot of issues with music. Like, the music like authenticity that I was listening to, it lacked heart, it lacked conviction.

 

So I would say a year after I started oh, you know, I mean, I stopped recording with him and I stopped recording with big stacks because he had some personal issues going on.

 

He had to take care of first. Mhmm. But a year after that happened, I decided to call myself, geekster, the super nerd, because I didn't think anything was ordinary about me.

 

III didn't as a nerd, nothing was ordinary about me because I felt that a regular nerd knows that they're a nerd, but a super nerd is an individual that not only knows what they are, but they also embrace you.

 

So I felt like that fit me perfectly.

 

So I say the the last well, the next time I soft accepted it, when I told him my name, They said no matter what hacker sticks with it. Stick with it. Yeah. And it's been a wrap ever since. I like it.

 

I think it's I think there's a certain amount of strength when you are able to identify who you are and what you stand for, but Like even on our podcast here, this year our theme is the character of your character where it doesn't necessarily have to be a fictional character but But who you are and what you embody as a value system and how you're able to communicate that and what you stand for and and what you wanna convey to other people about that image, about that identity.

 

I think it's a lot easier to be genuine because you know who you are. You know what you stand for.

 

It's a lot easier to build everything, respect for yourself, convey that in your music, in your art, for that matter, balance out you as an artist, you as a physical person, you as a digital person, you as a father.

 

Right? You as a fiancee, you as a as a person. Like, you can not necessarily compartmentalize, but but by building self respect and building your self identity and then building consistency with it, I think it helps process.

 

You mentioned mental health issues before, and we'll get into more of that here shortly, probably in the next segment. But But 1 of the things I think that stuck to me when you mentioned that is processing mental health issues.

 

And this isn't deformities and retardations and in in crazy extreme cases like this. This is just dealing with stresses and how you resolve conflict.

 

And how you view the world as mental health in this capacity but but I think what's cool about a man is you were able to take Your identity, cultivated into something that's easier for you to process in a way that you like to process based on video games, based on hobbies, based on your perspective of the world and then turn that into something in somebody and an image that you as a person can relate to and so you can sort out your own, you know, mental issues as you go.

 

That's gotta be a powerful feeling too. Yes, sir. It really is. It's no feeling like you.

 

So I guess then, if that's the case, let's let's roll into final fight then on that note where I feel like and and tell me if I'm missing the mark, I feel like I feel like a big theme of that album was recognizing your emotions and identifying find yourself and your ambition and and sort of flashbacks on decisions you could have made or done differently.

 

Am I close? What's what's the theme of the album?

 

What's it really about? Well, you you actually got got everything you said that was implemented in that project, self reflection, decisions that I should have made, but, you know, I went against my better judgment.

 

Uh-huh. The the whole thesis of find a fight there were a lot of people that had noticed that that was gonna be my last project.

 

Yeah. And the reason why, you know yeah. Because I was shaved throughout the years of me pursuing a career, I find myself getting the discouraged because here I am, it's hard to get a job, you know?

 

And not saying that I can't work a job, it's just that the job that I hear now, the only way you can be able to get employed is if you pass the assessment test.

 

Sure. You know? And And it it and it doesn't matter if it says urgent hiring or hiring on the spot.

 

If you can't pass that assessment test, you don't get the job done. Mhmm. With me, that was 1 of the things that held me back so I had to do odd jobs and stuff like that.

 

And in this situation, to where I wouldn't make enough money, to be able to buy the instrumentals that I use now. Like, I started off, you know, downloading instrumentals off YouTube and rapping on them.

 

Because all I could really afford was money for studio time, but it discouraged me because my peers and people that were around me they had enough money to literally buy instrumentalists and then pay for the studio time as well.

 

Music videos, they were doing all of that, and I felt like I was in a I was a snail in a race with a I mean, with a rabbit.

 

Yeah. You know, because you know, I'm I'm seeing the progress. It's gradual, but compared to what everybody else was doing, I felt like I was making no progress at all.

 

So I hadn't made up in my mind that, you know, in case things went south, final fight was gonna be my last project is gonna be, you know, saying goodbye to, you know, my attempts of setting foot into the industry.

 

Sure. So it was basically, you know, based on how I feel off the video game when you think about the word final, you think You think last, like, 1 more time.

 

It's the boss level. That's it. Yeah. Oh, yeah. So, like, if this really was a video game, like, the life that I the life I was living, the life I am living, I would definitely shake I was at their last stage with the last boss battle.

 

Sure. You know what I'm saying? And I had no idea if I was gonna be able to beat the boss But just in case if I wasn't able to, I wanted to leave a mark that said, hey, I was here and I was trying to get my foot in the door.

 

Yeah. Yeah. I like that. Now there's there's actually 2 tracks on the album, I guess let's touch on those real quick too.

 

Where we mentioned your collaboration on Cody Travers with I'm playing Jane before, but you did another 1 on there as well called born to fly. Right? Oh, yeah. Boy the fly is definitely it's 1 of the first songs you listen to.

 

As you dig deeper into the project. Yeah. I think it's the third or fourth track on there if I remember right. But The only thing the third 1 What's what's the inception for this track? What's what's behind it?

 

Well, I wrote that song when I was 21 years old and when I was at that age, you know, me and my mom, we argue on a constant basis, and I would say during that time, something told me to to record the conversation.

 

And we did. I mean, and I did. So I'm discouraged because she said some things that I mean, hit below the bell. IIIII think it's best to just say it that way. Sure. So I I left. I walked outside the house.

 

I sat on the steps. You know? And in our, you know, we had like a big yard. And a bird just a mocking bird just came out of nowhere, just landed on the ground. And I looked at the bird, and the bird made eye contact with me.

 

And it tilted his head, you know, it it it it I don't know. Maybe I could just be tripping, but the bird was like, what do you like? What are you doing? Like, really, what are you doing?

 

Yeah. You know? So it just blew away. And all I know was I started crying. When I when I saw that. Because I had the mentality to where I felt like a lot of stuff was wasn't going the way I feel this shit in life.

 

21 years ago, still living with my mom, you know. And now that's the point to where as I saw the bird fly, I said if I hey, wings, I would definitely you right behind you, you know.

 

So I see. I saw the song born to fly. And I always thought of myself as a Phoenix, legendary bird, you know, no matter what's done to it, it can always rise from the ash no matter what it goes through.

 

But for some strange reason, it was still a pile of ashes inside of a volcano. So this is for greatness, but it's still stuck in that in that in that in that same spot.

 

It's trying to deep dance trying to figure out how it can be able to reach that level, be able to be reborn, and be able to have everything you need to go from point a to point d.

 

I like that. I like that. Yeah. Phoenix with broken wings, I think you said.

 

Yes, sir. Yes, sir. Yeah. Yeah. Some of those lyrics are pretty powerful, actually. It was it was good. It was good. I think you did a well, both of you, I think you did a great job on that zone.

 

There's something to be said for that second win, I think. That that realization. Right? Like what think about this sometimes. What's the difference or the moment in time? Why is the moment different?

 

When everything's going well or everything's going whatever your normal of normal is compared to the moment when emotionally you're broke down, ready to quit, ready to give up, and something small like that bird didn't tell you anything.

 

You know? The bird didn't intentionally do anything at all.

 

He was doing bird things on a bird day. But But for you to interpret, just that small twitch of his head when you were in that level of dressed emotionally, trying to process life and angst and stressors and everything else.

 

I wonder what it is about those moments that makes things that much more powerful that now it's blown up and do an entire 5 minutes of your career for collaborations and music and its own standalone single, you know?

 

Yeah. Somewhere in the world, there is a bird who is not going to be getting any of your royalties and I think it's a disservice.

 

Man, And now you did another song on your album that we can tie back into here shortly. Called more than a game. I think you did this with I don't remember. The Iles gamer, I think. Yeah. Yeah. It was gamer and Game knows.

 

Yep. I had to listen to this 1 a couple times because I didn't process in my head how best to put this into words, but What I like about that song and I I believe the tie between these 2 born to fly and more than a game is ambition.

 

And -- Yes. -- and to to a lot of different perspectives, ambition and drive and motivation and inspiration are all sort of synonymous.

 

But I think ambition is a little bit more in that moment, emotional duress, and stress, and not really rock bottom or victimization, but But those moments where you get a second wind, ambition is what gives you traction to get out of the mud hole.

 

You know? It's what gets you moving. And and that's a powerful thing. And am I off the mark? Is that what more than a game is about? What what's the direction there? It was it was definitely ambition.

 

It was the drive to move forward. Because I would say that that was I would say, like, when I did the song out of the way and then more than the game, already had my mind made up that I was gonna keep going.

 

Mhmm. So it was amazing that, and, you know, physically, in real life, I underwent a transition from wanting to give up in this industry to, you know, continuing. It also reflected in that project.

 

And with more than the game, I, you know, I realized that it was going to take a lot more, and I realized that this the design of the universe, that some people just have to work a little bit harder than others.

 

You know? Sure. And when I realized when I realized that I said, you know it, well, if I have a lot more work to do than let me just keep going. So with more in the game, I focused on a lot of stuff that was important to me.

 

The things that made me happy, the people that depended on me, the things I needed to do in order for to keep that momentum going as far as financial dependency as far as my career, I took all of that and I put it in that in that song.

 

I I think it came out pretty well. I I think it did too. I I think it did. I'd say so. I haven't brought that up to you in any conversations we've had before until just now.

 

And if I'm that close to what you intended to come across, then I guess you did it very well. Yeah. Yes. That's I mean, that alone has to count for something.

 

But before we jump into some more stuff, let's take a quick break for a couple minutes and then we'll be back here on SDYT the podcast. Again, we're talking to Geekster, the Super Nerd, and we'll go over a little bit more in-depth.

 

We'll tie our next segment, I think, more into the present. And get out of the past a little bit. But for the time being on Porter, I'm your host, and guys we're back in a couple minutes.

 

Guysters, the type button. Yes, sir. Hey everybody. This is Porter with SD YT the podcast. We're talking about that in time with your family and even remembering loved ones, maybe when you can't be there.

 

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So go enjoy. Alrighty, folks. Welcome back to SD YT the podcast. I'm Porter. I'm your host, and again we're talking with Geekster, the Supernard, recovered so much cool stuff in that first part geek or geekster. I'm a call you geek.

 

Is that cool, man? Can I call you geek? Absolutely. Alright. Gigg, I really appreciate you coming in, man. 1 of the things that we touched on in the last segment was 1 of the tracks from Final Fight called more than a game.

 

This this collaboration that you had with the Ellis gamer and game notes talking about ambition and drive and sort of balancing out your expectations and your ambition with the constraints of reality in moment in the present.

 

Right? Absolutely. Alright. So 1 of the things I wanna ask you about, just as a as a person, not necessarily as an artist, depending on how you wanna take this.

 

It's up to you. But Sure. Yes, sir. Yes, sir. But there's gotta be a balance. But in this in this sort of I guess, rat race of chasing your dreams and keeping up with reality.

 

Right? How do you how do you, in your perspective, your values, your your style, balance that out in your career, in hobbies? What do you do?

 

Well, I would always have to say that having my priorities in order played a major role in it. Mhmm. Because I've noticed that there are a lot of artists a lot of people in general that they'll put their passion before everything.

 

Sure. They'll they'll they'll put it first. And they'll put their passion before their friends, their family, their loved ones, and things like that.

 

And I noticed that things couldn't up or go downhill for them. Mhmm. You know? But I think that with me, I was always in steel to be able to know what's truly important.

 

And to be able to be able to know when to put that first. And when you know how to put priorities in order, it seems like light itself falls into place. Because I would say that during the the last year.

 

Ever since March because that's when I started recording on the projects. I had to maintain that mentality of recording and releasing these projects, but also making sure that my yonce and our daughter were okay.

 

So the first thing I did was I told my fiance, hey, I know that I've been working this job since 2019, but, you know, I realized now that not I have job, I have no excuse not to release any music.

 

So this whole year, I'm gonna be releasing 3 projects in needs you to be cool with it.

 

Mhmm. And she was, every Thursday, I will always send her the money she would ask it that's why I love about my fiance. She's not hard she's not hard to please.

 

Very reasonable as long as you you come to her honestly. Yeah. So when I told her how much the instrumentals would cost, how much the studio time would cost, she said, well, just send me such and such money.

 

And the way that worked out is not only will I have enough money to be able to, you know, invest in my hobbies but I would also have enough money enough to be able to be there for her and our daughter's stuff like that.

 

So I think that just shows said when you, you know, when you put the most important things first, everything else got into place.

 

So and and thank goodness for that because it was a long I felt like it it it was a long time, but, you know, I feel like it it worked out well because it's been there were times to where I would have a studio station scheduled for that day I would tell her about the station, but, you know, stuff happened with our daughter and things like that with her that was serious.

 

I put that first. And for some strange reason, when I did, I would have to let the engineer know or the producer know, hey, this came up, had, like, some family issues I had to take care of.

 

If there any way they can I can, you know, pay or buy this instrumental on a another time? And to my surprise, they said, no. Just come on. I'll send you the instrumental or There you go.

 

And and and and and take out this studio session just pay me the moment you get paid. Yeah. And it worked out. So none of them would've been able to take place unless I knew what was important and I took care of that first.

 

That's there is no replacement for loyalty, whether it's to yourself, to your dreams, to your family, to your priorities, whatever.

 

But I agree. You gotta be honest. Like you were talking about with your fiance, you gotta be honest first, to identify how to prioritize and what your priorities are.

 

And then dedication and loyalty to them. It goes a long way, man. Yeah. I totally understand. For sure. The though there's a spot in final fight. It's it's dialogue. It's recorded dialogue.

 

In final fight, Actually, I'm pretty sure it's in more than a game. If I had to guess -- Uh-huh. -- it's it sounds like the same lady in the recording from born to fly in the intro. So I'm assuming it's your mother.

 

I don't know. But she says The world doesn't revolve around me like the world doesn't revolve around you. That's my mom. Yeah. Definitely. Alright. Well, I agree with her. That's true. It doesn't. But Yes, sir.

 

But I think there's a balance there because you can't chase what you want your dreams and make it a priority without sacrificing to a certain degree, the fact that the world does in in fact need to sometimes revolve around you in your schedule to make these dreams reality Right?

 

So how do you balance out your attention span or need for time or need for money or need for attention?

 

You can't sacrifice for everybody else all the time. How do you prioritize that better? Well, I would have to say that And I and now I have to be honest with myself yet again.

 

I've always been a giving person. I I will not lie. I've always been the kind of person to wear. If I have it, and a person within my circle of friends or family or associates needed it, it was it was theirs automatically.

 

Mhmm. But I've also had to realized that I have to put myself first sometimes. Sure. So and it has to be a balance, you know, and I feel like I had to.

 

And sometimes it can be complicated, it can be tricky because you all it it takes time to understand when to put yourself first and when make other people to pry your teeth? You know? Because -- Yeah.

 

-- the same way you can't always make other people first can't always make yourself first. So the line between there can be blurry sometimes. But I trust my instincts. I really think about do I really need to do this for myself first?

 

And I'll you know, I I'll wait a pros and cons of doing that. And I would say it's worked out. I would say it has because I think it also involves involves your things too. What do you think?

 

Being able to really just make make sound decisions and things like that. I think a lot of that comes from upbringing and perspective, though. To to make sound decisions and and really just respect other people as a priority.

 

Yes, sir. But I think that comes as you grow up, you sort of mature with your roundings over to hopefully, hopefully, you mature with your surroundings over time.

 

And I think a lot of that's apparent in your music too But as an artist in developing your style, we talked about it a little bit well, basically 20 12:20 14.

 

Up to 20 20 in the past, but but in the present, how do you consistently develop you and your perspective. You know, how do you decide what to let in and what to internalize and how do you inspire yourself now?

 

To do new projects and keep pushing? Well, I can say on a music aspect, a lot of that plays deal with me remaining true to who I to who I am, like and it's amazing because I could be you know, watching YouTube about a video game.

 

And out of nowhere, I could be I'd be like, hey.

 

I can make a mix if or an album out of it. And and it just it happens by itself. Like, it's not something I just I planned or something I forced like, I've learned to go with the flow and just trust the process.

 

Mhmm. And I think that's the whole reason why I was able to release 3 projects. In such a short period of time last year.

 

So I would say, if I stay true to who I am, in the in doing the things I enjoy, I'm able to incorporate all of that into music because watching anime coming up with app with with music projects based off that.

 

Video gangs, I even thought of a a comic book. I mean, project based off a comic book there, I read when I was going up. So I feel like if you incorporate what you love into music and stuff like that, it shows.

 

And I think that's 1 of the things that always keeps me ZIP always keeps me fit with inspiration because I know that the things that I love and I enjoy will never die out.

 

Like, I think, what, maybe 10, like, years from now, you know, after I pass away, they'll still be coming up with video games.

 

I wouldn't be surprised if they were still making sequence to street fighter or motor combat after I arrived there.

 

I I was not surprised by this. Yeah. Yeah. Well, that's like what was it? Moral combat legacy, I think, a couple years ago. It was gonna be a live action. You remember that? I remember that. Yes, sir. Whatever happened with that.

 

I didn't even see if that end date or came too. More, I don't think it came out I think what they did was oh, yeah. None of it. I think it didn't come out. I don't know. I remember seeing clips on YouTube. And then it just wasn't.

 

It just it just stopped as far as I saw it. I think they did release it. I'm not sure I have to go back. Because the only 1 that I know about was mortal combat scorpions revenge. And I think Well, that 1 was animated, though.

 

Right? It was animated. Yes, sir. Yes, sir. Yeah. Legacy was was all live action. Oh, no. How I remember what you're talking about. Know what they like, you have people that do a lot of false advertising.

 

Mhmm. And you have people that they'll do stuff like that to get hype and they'll do that to get like followers or subscribers and comments on YouTube and stuff like that.

 

But it was confirmed that that wasn't gonna be a real bank. A lot of people are disappointed by that.

 

Yeah. That's a letdown. That would've been pretty cool. It it it it really would have. Are you so what are you alright. Let me ask you this. What we're talking about mortal combat? What do you think about a Scorpion themed album.

 

It or not, I have a scorpion themed song on the SoundCloud. What's it called? The Raptors Palzko Khastashi Oh, well, that makes sense. Okay. Sure. But this is before he became Scorpion, I assume or like like mortal combat scorpion?

 

He is about it has 3 verses. The first verse explains how it is. It became scorpion. The second verse explains how it is. He grew to despise sub 0 stuff like that.

 

And the third verse, x plays Heidi's. He kills scorpion. He does I'm a I'm sub 0, but he does not have his closure until he finds out that Quanxi was the 1 that killed his family, and he killed Quanxi.

 

That's a heavy song. Oh, yeah. It is. That's A lot of people were surprised I was able to make that song and stick to it.

 

Yeah. That's a lot to put into 1 song too. It was. It I had to hit it right in the hole, trumpet, there's so much to talk about. Yeah. Man, that I I love your creativity, man.

 

I I think it's really cool how you're pulling in these different influences that you're already passionate about into a different outlet that you're also passionate about, and then it comes through.

 

You know, it's it's genuine, but It's fun.

 

It's not super real and down to earth, where it's almost specifically unrelated because there aren't people that are living your life, but you and your neighbors and your friends and your social circles.

 

But but it's specific enough to where people can relate. III think it's such a cool direction that you're taking this. 1 of the things speaking of commonality that you mentioned earlier, I guess a little bit more on a serious note.

 

You talked about mental health mindfulness, and 1 of the things that we've talked about which now we're gonna bring up as well was you called a bipolar depression.

 

I'm not too familiar with any of this. So if you're cool with it, let's let's roll that direction because I'm sure there are listeners out there that can relate to that.

 

So I'm just gonna let you take the reins for a little bit while we're talking about mental health and bipolar depression How does this apply to you? What's your take on this? What's your perspective here?

 

I would say that it's something that It's close to my heart because once again, like in in my nick of the woods, you have individuals that when you hear the word mental health or determine mental health, they automatically come to the conclusion that you need to be institutionalized.

 

You need to be put somewhere. You need to be put on a Social Security check. Sure.

 

And and that prevents a lot of people that I know they need you know, treatment of some kind for mental health to be prevented from going to get it because of the stereotype and what but how that was spread around town and stuff like that.

 

So I would have to say that with me having bipolar depression, is to the point to where I have very unpredictable mood swings sometimes.

 

Mhmm. And it can get to the point to where, you know, with me I guess the best way to say this is that with me having that count on the question, I have triggers a lot of triggers.

 

And I think we all do, but I think the difference between a person that has depression or bipolar depression and a regular human being being triggered is that when well, with someone like me being triggered, our reaction just there can be extreme sometimes.

 

Uh-huh. Sometimes to the point to where if we sit back and we think about it, like, man, I did not have to react that way. And that caused us to be even more depressed because we get upset about it.

 

We feel like we should've handled that situation different. But at the same time, it's like a impulse. It's something that really I can't I don't wanna say it can't be controlled but it has to be something that you are fully aware of.

 

And when I did, you know, go to get the the coping skills I needed, they said that the first step to being able to improve your I mean, your reaction to a to a situation like that is realizing when you are angry and when you are about to get angry in That was easy because 1 thing I've noticed that when I get angry, my body temperature changes, like, I feel hot when I get angry.

 

So the moment I'm the moment I noticed that, I do whatever it takes to calm down.

 

Whether it's talk to my dad or talk to my fiance or walk around. I do what it takes to be able to put myself in the better mindset. So I was saying that that's helped. We out a lot.

 

But there's a lot of people that they don't know how to do that. Mhmm. And they don't know how to do that because they're afraid to reach out to their help I mean, for their help because they're so afraid of having a label put on them.

 

They're so afraid of losing friends, losing associates, they're trying to save face. A lot of people are. And I always felt that her reputation is worthless when it comes to getting the help that you need.

 

I would rather get the help I need and lose friends that probably that I didn't deserve to have or didn't deserve to have near their circle, then to pretend like everything is okay, and being a company of associates that don't have my best interest at heart.

 

Sure. Yeah. And what role have you found then for I I don't wanna just relegate to music. This could be any of your hobbies, you know, whether it's -- Mhmm.

 

-- reading or cooking or painting or music or whatever, but what role have you found your hobbies to fill as an outlet for you to mitigate some of your triggers and manage this?

 

I would say that 1 thing I well, let me see. I'm trying to word it correctly. Sure. I would say that to a lot of people, my music is awesome content. But to me, my music is actually a conduit.

 

In which I'm able to channel everything I feel, everything I know, everything I stand on, and everything I believe in, I'm able to transfer all of that into the music, you know? Kinda like Thor.

 

I learned recently that the reason why Thor has that hammer is because on his own, he can't control his electric powers. That hammer serve as a conduit, he can be able to channel that excess energy into so I can relate to that.

 

When I realized, I said, okay. I'm doing something right. Let me keep this going. Yeah, man. Music is your mjolnir. Yes, sir. I like that. I like that. Maybe that could be another track. It's kind of a catchy title too.

 

But when we're talking about music and mental health, 1 of the things that I thought was pretty neat about born why, I'm gonna roll back to that track for a second, is the amount of self love It wasn't like you specified a social status or a background.

 

It was it was relatable and generic enough where building hope and ambition, almost regardless of setback but and drive, for yourself to better yourself and your circumstances.

 

That level and identification of self love I think was pretty apparent in that song. What role did that have? You mentioned as a conduit, but where did that actually come from?

 

For you then. How do you how do you alright. Let me back up. Let me back up. You explained where that song came from. But how do you relate to say that song and that theme of self love and self care present in that song?

 

How do you relate to that now? Is it even still applicable? It's still very relevant because and and it's a lot of self love because Growing up, I had virtually no self esteem.

 

None whatsoever. And I think I would dare to say that my lack of self esteem and confidence was embodied in their song. Because here I am, I'm 21 years I still live with my mom. My mom isn't giving me that positive energy to keep going.

 

She's not giving me that energy to, you know, she not it's not like she's saying, you know what? You've got these. Keep going, you know. And then on top of that, you know, issues with employment and things like that.

 

And it was a struggle to remain positive or to be able to cultivate the confidence I needed to, believing myself the way I do now, but I would say that 9 than 9 years ago.

 

It well, actually, 8 years ago, I was 21. So the way I was then, it's different from how I am.

 

Now, I would say I have a lot more confidence, a lot more selfish thing. And I would say that the motivating factor behind there is that the relationship I have with my mom, I don't want to have that relationship with my daughter.

 

I don't want to be in the position to wear she's going through something, or she comes to me, or I see her going through something.

 

And instead, giving her a a sense of refreshment, mentally, and stuff like that, I'm tearing her down making this seem like it's her fault, like, she's messing up.

 

I wanna be able to do the opposite of what my mom did with me. So I always remember this song, and that song is actually a daily reminder to be the kind of parent that my mom wasn't to my daughter.

 

Yeah. I like that. You know, I'm sure you can definitely relate and probably speak to it a lot more in-depth than I can.

 

But I think every good protagonist, every good superhero, has that moment in their development arc that changes everything and pushes them to a better direction, and it sounds like that was your catalyst.

 

It sounds like that's a theme that worked well for you.

 

So if that's any indication, I guess, wearing tights is entirely your perspective if you decide to, but at the very least you're on track to being a pretty legit superhero, so that counts for something.

 

Yes, absolutely. Yeah, man. Let's take a quick couple minutes.

 

We'll take a break. We'll come back more with Geekster, the super nerd. We'll talk a little bit more about future generations now, confidence, self esteem, and then your values and how this applies to a future perspective.

 

So I'm pretty excited to jump back in with you, but for the time being, sit tight for a few minutes, get going back in the second row.

 

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I'm Porter. I'm your host. You're talking with Geekster, the Super Nerd, phenomenal interview so far, man. I really appreciate you having time to sit in here and talk. We've covered all kinds of cool stuff.

 

The past that led up to your present, metaphorically, physically, your artistry, your development as a human, as as a character, essentially now that you're becoming within your albums, I'd I really appreciate the opportunity.

 

So I guess first, before we dive into more of this, thank you.

 

You're welcome, sir. Anytime. Yeah. I had fun. Yeah. Yeah. This is this is pretty cool. For all of the listeners that have come in as this show's been progressing, or if you're just new to the show, welcome.

 

If you're a returning listener, especially if you've been with us throughout this entire episode, welcome back. Let's get back into this. When we left off on the last segment, Gabe, we were talking about future generations.

 

And parenting and lessons that you learned about parenting or about life from you, the relationship you had with your mom and growing up with adult figures to now how you are trying to morph that into a style, your own style, for parenting and role modeling and inspiration for your daughter.

 

Right? Yes, sir. For talking video games, I guess, the character development, the arc that you've used and developed and embodied over now basically 3 decades of of consciousness is ridiculous.

 

The shift that you've been able to make, in my opinion, the shift that you've been able to make, you know, from relative turmoil, mental physical, emotional, whatever, and processing that.

 

And from what you said, generally speaking, not that you haven't had port network to fall back on, but the majority of that transition in strength development has been in your head on your own through different outlets.

 

Your music, your paintings, your reading, your interpretation of the world, and that 1 little bird on that 1 day, you know?

 

Like Yes, sir. That's that's crazy. There's a there's a lot of inner strength. I think that it takes to be able to make a transition like that. So for 1, I guess, just my opinion and sort of advice to you. Don't say yourself short.

 

Yes, sir. Yes, sir. But 1 of the things that you touched on in the last segment, I guess, essentially, is Thor channeling this electricity into well, I don't know, whatever you can do with electricity and a hammer.

 

That he would do this this mjolnir as a mindset concept, man.

 

I think it's so cool that you're using music in artistry to find your style, identify yourself, your strengths, embody this new character for your daughter and for your family and channel these emotions in these mindsets into this outlet for them.

 

And then for the future use, so I guess we're talking future generations whether it's your daughter, whether it's other people's kids, or their grandkids, or just you in the future, when we're talking future generations, What's your direction, Geek?

 

What are you doing? What are you planning, man? How do you how do you see your character development arc changing?

 

I can definitely say is and it it's a surprise to me because it's so very unpredictable I can say that with me going with the flow, it even though it leads me to going different directions.

 

Somehow, in a weird sense, I stay on track because I focus on music But now I've start I've started focused on other things that could be able to help me out.

 

But somehow, no matter what I do, if always correlates with the music, with my family, with my personal life, So to tell you the truth, it it it's really no telling, obviously.

 

It surprises me sometimes. I'm I I won't even lie. Okay. Alright. Well, what kind of plans do you already have in the works then?

 

Let's try that direction. What would do you? Well, I have some plans I would say, as of now, I've talked to a couple of people, I would say, sometime in the near future, I won't say when.

 

I will be having a booking agent so I can be able to showcase my music, perform, really being able to expand my brand.

 

So, you know, I can be able to reach more people, especially other individuals like me, specifically the younger generation.

 

I I would say that that was that's the primary targeted target at this point. What do you mean younger generation? Because to every 80 year old, there's younger generations.

 

You know? What do you what do you mean? Well, I guess what I would say is that when I say the younger generation, I say, like, people that used to be I mean, that are now 10:10 years old up to maybe 16 or 17.

 

I see. Where you were? Yes, sir. Absolutely. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. I'm with you. I'm with you. Yeah. I've I've got a son now.

 

He's 7 and there's a lot of things that he does and how he sees the world that have inspired me in the way I see it. Now differently than before he existed. I guess, sir. You know, and it's little things usually.

 

It's little things usually. Like, for example, we were driving the other day, and he was looking out the window and we passed 2 things on that drive that he made comments about that stuck with me.

 

The first, there was a guy standing on the order the road with a cardboard sign. You know, like, we'll work for food, God bless type sign, handwritten cardboard, piece of cardboard.

 

And my son looked out the window. Windows are up. Right? My son looked out the window. He looked back at me and he said, Daddy, why does that man have a sign?

 

Not why did he write that, why is that guy here, why whatever, but why does he have a sign? And I'll let you know. I didn't know how to answer it. Like, he's trying to get a message to people. He's trying to communicate.

 

He's trying to get money, he's trying to get food. Like none of it felt like a satisfactory answer. Right? So I I copped out and I was oh, because he's trying to communicate with people who are driving and their windows are up.

 

You know, it was a cop out answer, but but it got me thinking in the moment and really since then, How do you describe to somebody that you want to communicate so bad, you're willing to put it on a piece of trash and hope somebody looks at it?

 

You know, like like you can't find a way any other way.

 

You can't find any other way. A wave, a handshake, a hug, something physical, an email, a video call, a phone call, something verbal, like you can't find any other way to communicate.

 

At least that you could think of other than I'm gonna pick up this trash and just hope somebody responds.

 

Like, that level of acceptance for futility. And I'm not saying this all all applies. I think there are plenty of -- Right. -- people that fake being homeless to get money, unfortunately, or fake circumstances.

 

But we're applying this principle here to legitimacy. So to have that level of acceptance of futility, if that applies, that emotional bottom -- Yes, sir.

 

-- that was 1 of the moments to me that resonated when I was listening to Born to Fly and more than a game and different tracks, like Cody Travers, for example, on final fight.

 

And that and that was 1 of the things that drew me into your album.

 

But the second moment for relatability, I guess, the second moment though on that drive that stuck out to me. My son brought up this I assume homeless guy with with the sign there as we drove past him.

 

And then he asked me a little bit later in the drive. He said, Daddy, why don't you do that? Now that answer, again, you know, I gave them a pretty standard because I don't want to.

 

I don't need to. You know? Like, it was it was easy enough, but but on some sort of deeper level for whatever inspirational reason, hit me, was why don't I try to communicate with people out of some sort of desperation.

 

I don't actually know what that's like, that emotional level of depravity, I guess.

 

I don't know. I I don't have any way to experience it or to relate with people on that level, but the flip side is and I have no way of knowing I didn't count, but the flipside is, how many people actually live that way every day?

 

Whether they're homeless or not or just having life issues and stressors that they're trying to work through or communicate from a point of depression, for example, or suicidal thoughts or sociopathic thoughts, like the level of frustration to a certain degree to communicate with people about topics and from a perspective where you as the speaker feel like nobody else understands where I'm coming from.

 

I can't communicate with anybody. You know, I don't know what that's like in part because I've never actually internalized that throughout my life and never really thought about it. But luckily, I haven't needed to.

 

Interestingly enough, the dialogue intro, the argument between you and your mom and born to fly, when I heard that, That second moment is exactly where I went back to because that's exactly what you told your mom.

 

You were saying that you didn't know how to relate her. You didn't know how to communicate with her, and she sort of threw her hands up and was like, well, then I can't help you either, you know.

 

It's Yep. Pretty much. That the fact that that conversation went through. That's such a crazy, powerful moment, man.

 

Having that level of relatability with other people It's such a powerful and unique position because regardless of how many people actually feel that way, I don't know that there are as many people who have identified how to communicate from that perspective, and you have that ability.

 

You have that that superpower, man.

 

It's so cool, hearing how your music's developed. DebStar was a little bit more political well, a lot more political than Final Fight, but but as a general theme, And so hearing the 2 together, how your perspective changed.

 

And from what you said, actually, how your perspective change just between July and December of 20 21 when those 2 came out is is crazy.

 

And to me, it's a 6 month difference. To you, I assume it's a lifetime of perspective changes. Yes, sir.

 

Yes, sir. So moving forward, I understand it's difficult to try to guess or forecast how your perspective's gonna change. But what are some I guess new influences on the horizon or old influences you intend to look at differently.

 

Social media, movies, music comics, whatever, but Like, what are you where's your perspective taking you next? There's 2 things, and they're both from the from, you know, from the past.

 

1 I would definitely say was Spider Man, the comic book. And I always try to keep that in mind for future references so I can be able to also let people know where my drive came from.

 

I didn't come across Spidermen until I was, like, like, 9 9 or 10 years old. Mhmm. And when I was I remember I was winning my role in 1 of my older brothers was watching Spider Man in the animated series.

 

Mhmm. And I'm seeing I'm seeing this guy in a red and blue costume, having bullets and lasers shot at him. He's dodging and doing backless with ease. I'm like, Ken, who is this?

 

He told me it was inspiring. I said, Who is he? He said, I married the guy super proud. I'm like, and my face lit up because I didn't think a nerd could be anything except a nerve, I'm like, you know, nerves can actually be cool.

 

So all I knew was I I started watching a whole animated series any comic book that came out or I read and stuff like that had to re I just need to find my brother back and read some of his comic books, but it was worth it.

 

Sure. And I realized I wanted to be a hero too. But I never knew how I was going to go about doing it until I realized I love music.

 

And when I realized that, I was able to talk about topics that other people could relate to or people, you know, I said, this is how I can do it. So that's where a lot of that, you know, that leadership role came into as well.

 

So for future references, I'm going to keep that in mind and make it painstakingly known that you don't have to find inspiration from things that actually exist.

 

You know? I feel like Fiction can also be as beneficial as as fact or nonfiction. Yeah. Definitely.

 

There's a lot of power in the imagination. Think even subconsciously it helps people process what's going on in the world. So there's a certain level of truth to it whether it's factual truth, I guess, or some sort of what's the word?

 

Some sort of like esoteric or metaphoric truth to it. You know? Yes, sir. Yeah, there's definite there's definite power there.

 

The underdogs of society, I suppose, that become superheroes which for whatever reason I think that the vast majority of superheroes in comic books are the outcasts in their alter egos. You know? Yes, sir.

 

But then they all tend to build this build on this commonality of, well, actually, we are all outcasts, but we're all outcasts who are superheroes, so now we're all superheroes together and no longer outcasts among all other superheroes, you know?

 

And And they built a support network and they built a way to relate with each other and communicate and have things in common, where otherwise they felt alone and afraid and deserted.

 

That that sort of ability to ask for help is what we put into a hashtag called combining conquer. But but you are actually you put in more than a game.

 

I think 1 of the lines of the lyrics in there is giving life to vision. And I don't know if it's game notes or Iola's gamer or or who exactly, but but but somebody said, give life to vision. And I think that ability is easier as a team.

 

And easier with a support network and an outlet and a way to learn as a even a mentor, to how to channel the emotion and the just sort of the raw vision into a finely tuned and honed product.

 

So I guess on that note, for future nerd core opportunities.

 

As far as Geekster's concerned, let's talk a little bit about some resources some websites, some marketing, some merchandise, future collaboration opportunities, whatever you want, man. This is your piece.

 

If people wanna find more about you, your career, your music, your merchandise, where do we go? What do we do? Well, you can find me on Facebook at Lawrence Luke's open parenthesis, geek's to the super nerd close parenthesis.

 

Find me on Instagram, Geeks to the super nerd. I would say SoundCloud, audio Mac, all streaming platforms, gets to the super nerd. I'm also not that you mentioned, I'm selling merchandise I'm selling t shirts, hoodies, v nicks.

 

I'm selling coffee mugs, duffel bags, backpacks, tote bags, beanies. You can find that at Nerd Music payroll dot my spreadsheet shop dot com.

 

It's a discount going on. So I would say that you know, to just hurry up and jump up on it because last time I checked, I think it lasted till like the 20 second of this month. I would say that I have a a lot in store for the music.

 

I'm gonna be working on an album. Well, 2 albums, actually. 1 is for both of my cousins that are incarcerated for crimes that they did not commit, that album is going to be called innocent but living guilty.

 

Mhmm. I'm gonna be working on a set on a a album, a second album, and it's going to be called Tuffy Mill, and that is based off the video game, Tuffy Mill, also known as dead dance.

 

Wanna be reaching out to different nerd called artists such as craziet the grade, hieroglyphics, daddy fast maps, rustage. I'm also going to be working with some with 2 Nericore producers, arcade to Sage, in building mistakes.

 

So I have a lot planned for this year. So merchandise new 2 new albums, some features. It's I have a lot planned for this year. Absolutely.

 

Yeah. I'd say so. And we'll put up links to nerve music, apparel, your Facebook, your Instagram, Well, and Spotify, obviously. We'll put links to there as well. So in the show once this episode airs, People can click on that as well.

 

That'll be up on Facebook, survival dad y t, that'll be up on Instagram, also survival dad y t, and then you'll be able to find those links as well in the show notes on Spotify and other podcast excuse me, podcasting stations.

 

So People will be able to find that as well. But for the time being, Geek, I appreciate this, man. This was super cool. To be able to go through some of this music and thought process and your perspective and your values.

 

I really appreciate the opportunity. So again, thank you. Yes, sir. The pleasure was all mine. Like, I'm I'm really glad I was able to able to do this today. Yeah.

 

Yeah. This was a lot of fun. And we'll have to jump on it again next and and get updates with you. It sounds like 20 22 is gonna be pretty busy, so maybe after that. But I look forward to the opportunity. We'll see what we can sort out.

 

Yes, sir. Oh, yeah. Anytime. Anytime. Yes, sir. Yeah. I appreciate it. Alright. So to all of our listeners out there, I appreciate you guys jumping in as well, and I'm sure Geekek does But again if you're new to the show, welcome.

 

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